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Awkward girl
Mar. 7th, 2009 08:07 pmI’m awkward with boys and I don’t like myself for that. I just don’t know how to act around them. I talk to them like they are my friends, not some potential boyfriends or something. This is probably why it was a disaster when I was dating this guy, 8 years older than me.
And I still identify myself as bisexual, only I’m probably 100% lesbian… Just sometimes I think that I’m not anything; just a girl, who sometimes likes boys and sometimes girls. I just like interesting people and sometimes I fall in love with the wrong kind.
Is it a stupid thing that I’m 21 and I still don’t know surely my sexuality? And I hate that my parents (especially my mom) are waiting for me to find the right guy for me, fall in love and marry him. I just wish for it to happen to, so I won’t disappoint them.
And I still identify myself as bisexual, only I’m probably 100% lesbian… Just sometimes I think that I’m not anything; just a girl, who sometimes likes boys and sometimes girls. I just like interesting people and sometimes I fall in love with the wrong kind.
Is it a stupid thing that I’m 21 and I still don’t know surely my sexuality? And I hate that my parents (especially my mom) are waiting for me to find the right guy for me, fall in love and marry him. I just wish for it to happen to, so I won’t disappoint them.
