Think happy thoughts!

So, my birthday has passed like a month ago and I haven't managed to update this journal. I don't know how to make myself update.

( Here, have a picture of me and my friends from the party: )

The party was really great. I had a lot of fun! And my friends got me an Olympus VG-130 camera, which is kind of awesome of them. I didn't even think that they'd get me something like that.

I've had a week of from work and it has been amazing! I visited my brother in Minsk and it was a super awesome time. And I finally met his girfriend, who is awesome and I approve of her so fucking much!

OK, new Justin Timberlake music, let's talk about that. I didn't even know that I wanted his new album in my life, but I couldn't stop myself and bought it. I think it's a great album, there's just 2 songs that I don't really like, but all others are fucking awesome. I love Mirrors so fucking much!

And I just discovered this band - Shinedown. They are kind of super awesome! I can't stop listening to them.

After MCR's break up, I couldn't listen to their music without feeling sad, so I kind of skipped it everytime it was on, but now everything got better and I'm finally enjoying their music again.

Preordered FOB's new album. Can't wait to listen to it. The new song "The Phoenix" is even more catching than "My Songs Know What You Did In the Dark". I've been singing it for days.

I've been trying to catch up with my reading page for the last hour, but I've been procrastinating so much that it's been a week since I last checked it. But I will read it all!!!!

Feeling down a little bit. Realised that I definitely seriously stupidly fell in love and right now I don't know what to do. On one hand, it's a good thing, but on the other - not so great. I really should just ask him out and if he says no, I'll just move on. But I know myself, I'm a coward, I won't be able to ask him.

I feel like shit right now. I shouldn't be left alone when I'm sad, then all kinds of bad thought visit me. Like, 1) no one loves me; 2) I'm an ugly girl 3) I'm fat and I need to lose weight and then I'll be pretty (although I weight like 54 kg) 4) sometimes my mind remembers when I was in 10th grade and most of the time I was a sad little emo person and I wanted to die.

It's sad to be me sometimes, although all the other times I'm a happy person. Just sometimes I hit the low points in life and they are ugly. I think it's not that ugly inside my head like other people experience, but sometimes it gets quite ugly.

I've training today, sports should beat the shit out of the sadness - it usually does. And then in the evening me and some friends from uni will probably go somewhere. Maybe that will cheer me up.

To cheer myself up and to cheer everyone reading this, have a Patrick gif made by craww

Um, hello there, Patrick Stump!

Do you think he regressed in age, he looks 16 or something. At first glance this looks like an old picture of him, but then I saw the signature guitar and I was like 'WHAT? WOW! Is this really Patrick?'. But he looks good, really good.

He looks like this right now and soon he'll be all bb!patrick.

thank you icecreamhdaches for the link.

It's an awesome performance. And I love the little dance Pete did.

Why does everything interesting happens when I'm asleep? Like P.Wentz posting a link to a pretty lullaby. I think I'm going to be listening to it every night before sleep.

I want MCR to finish the album faster. I really want the new album already. But thanks to mychemicalromance.com and twitter, we know how the recording is progressing.

Did you see the new Regina Spektor's music video for her song Laughing with? If no, go here. I really like this song.

A minute ago I was like I'm becoming boring, there's nothing to blog about. I'm pathetic.

But then I find this new fine photo of Patrick Vaughn Stump. He's so cute and pretty here.



I went to sleep at 2 a.m. today/yesterday and I had to get up at 7 a.m. It's just because me and one of my new room-mates were talking about life, love, boys etc. till 2 a.m. But it was really fun.

But I don't know how I manage to wake up at 7 a.m. only sleeping for 5 hours. My body usually wants 8-10 hours of sleep.

I just want to post this super cute picture of Patrick!



Now I need an FOB icon.