My good mood is gone.

Feeling down a little bit. Realised that I definitely seriously stupidly fell in love and right now I don't know what to do. On one hand, it's a good thing, but on the other - not so great. I really should just ask him out and if he says no, I'll just move on. But I know myself, I'm a coward, I won't be able to ask him.

I feel like shit right now. I shouldn't be left alone when I'm sad, then all kinds of bad thought visit me. Like, 1) no one loves me; 2) I'm an ugly girl 3) I'm fat and I need to lose weight and then I'll be pretty (although I weight like 54 kg) 4) sometimes my mind remembers when I was in 10th grade and most of the time I was a sad little emo person and I wanted to die.

It's sad to be me sometimes, although all the other times I'm a happy person. Just sometimes I hit the low points in life and they are ugly. I think it's not that ugly inside my head like other people experience, but sometimes it gets quite ugly.

I've training today, sports should beat the shit out of the sadness - it usually does. And then in the evening me and some friends from uni will probably go somewhere. Maybe that will cheer me up.

To cheer myself up and to cheer everyone reading this, have a Patrick gif made by craww