I don't know what's wrong with me.

[nadya]

Yesterday I had the crappiest day of my life, I was just on nerves all day, everyone was making me sick and I just wanted to close myself in a room and just cry my eyes out. And when I woke up today, I thought that every thing's fine and it's going to be a good day. Only I did have a nervous breakdown, again. Stupid body and it's stupid hormones messing with my head.

And it was the first time that this happened to me, I just wanted to disappear. Was it stress related, was it something else? I don't understand myself.

I finally saw my brother, he came to visit us yesterday. It was so good to see him. And now he's going to visit us more often. I hope so. And he fixed my computer a little bit. At least, it's working better. And how could I think that I didn't have any viruses? 'Cause it's me - I always catch viruses. Stupid me.